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The Distraction of Ms Inspiration

Lately, Ms Inspiration has not been much help. Not so that she doesn’t spout ideas – she most certainly does, especially around three o’clock in the morning – but her attention span is the size of a newt’s, which means none of the ideas go much beyond an image or two. It’s very annoying to have her leapfrog from a (great) idea for a story set in the 13th century to a vague daydream about becoming a hammer thrower and winning the Olympic gold in 2016. (This is the aftermath of having watched too much sports lately. Ms Inspiration has sadly concluded that I can neither run nor do handstands, so throwing something is the single option that remains.)

Mostly though, Ms Inspiration is presently suffering from indecisiveness. What she touts as a plausible idea on Monday is a dead duck on Tuesday, and the fabulous love scene she painted for me on Wednesday she scraps on Thursday, saying that “it wouldn’t work.” Besides, she adds with a dramatic shrug, she’s thinking maybe I should do some dark realism.
What? No, no, no, no, no! I don’t do dark realism, I have enough realism in my life anyway, thank you very much. I do escapism, stories about men and women in other times and other places.
“The love scene is much more my thing,” I tell her. (And it is; I do good love scenes)
“I told you; it wouldn’t work,” she snaps.
“Why not?”
“He’s already married,” she informs me. (A big stickler for morality is Ms Inspiration. Leads to some very heated discussions, let me tell you.)
“We can unmarry him,” I try. “He’s not real.” Not yet, I mean. Once I start writing about this as yet unknown male, he very quickly becomes very real.
“To me he is,” she says.

In protest I try to develop the scene by myself. Ms Inspiration goes on strike. My fingers cramp, my vocabulary shrinks to a maximum of 200 words, and the vague mental images I have of this unformed loving couple are brutally excised. I hate her. She snickers and twirls into a little whirlwind that fades away, leaving me longing for her to come back ASAP.

Ms Inspiration is a dark haired woman who would be beautiful had she not had a huge nose. (“Ow! Don’t pinch me!” Well at least she’s back…) She has kohl rimmed eyes that I am very jealous off, but no matter how often I try this look out on myself the end result is always that of a Panda bear with a severe case of consumption – i.e. not the wished for effect. Ms Inspiration wears tight, long sleeved tops and sweeping, floral skirts that I’d love to wear but try to avoid. Being shorter and rounder, wearing flowered skirts gives me a disconcerting resemblance to a spinning top draped in a waxed tablecloth.

But most of all, Ms Inspiration sees stories in everything. I walk by a lame dog, and Ms inspiration whispers a little story about how the dog injured his hind leg while defending the family’s baby against the fierce attacks of a wolf. (Well, I didn’t say all her stories are good and original…) Loitering by the railway station is a young man with tattoos and long, dirty hair. Ms Inspiration sees an eco warrior, a person who has sacrificed everything to fight for his convictions, and along the way he’s fallen in love with a Somali goat herder who has escaped her father and is scraping a living in Patagonia. (“Patagonia? how would a Somali woman have …” “Details, schmetails. You sort the logistic issues,” she says, waving a hand at me.)

She might be contrary and opinionated, loud and impossible to manage. There’s no turning her on, and there’s not an “off” button in sight, but ultimately Ms Inspiration is my driving force, my very own creative genie. Without her I would be diminished, all those words that sort of bubble out me drying up into a meaningless trickle.
“Huh,” Ms Inspiration snorts, but I can hear she’s touched. Besides, she’s wiping that giant beak of hers. “You’re only saying all that because you need my help.”
Absolutely. But why tell her so?
“Now, about that love scene,” I say instead. And this time Ms Inspiration delivers, oh boy does she deliver.

1 thought on “The Distraction of Ms Inspiration”

  1. Hrmmmm……a Ms Cyrano…..? Either way, I loooove your Ms Inspiration! Without her I wouldn’t have Matthew in my life, and that would indeed be a great loss.

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